Wednesday, August 5, 2009

2 hrs sleep in two days...and still going....

Yes it's 12:12 a.m. and it's been a rough rough day. Court 9:30 a.m. was eventful. For those of you who did not know, David's ex started some stuff about a month ago and got confrontational in front of Kevin, which left him distressed, frightened, and lying to his mommy "D" (that's the ex), oh and let me add he was confused. It's been a very rough rough month for us.

With the fight of the windmill project, I have succeeded in getting through to the farmer, and I think the Horizon Wind Energy's pocketbook contributed to Mr. Farmer buying our home. We are getting out! Not for what we should have gotten for losing the home we had a love/hate relationship...but the blood sweat and tears have to be left behind.

But I digress back to mommy "D", she presented a situation as an immature child and not as an adult addressing questions and issues with discipline in front of Kevin...due to the fact that supposedly at random he says "Mommy Misty puts soap in my mouth if I call her Step Mom"....here we go again....the soap thing, he was threatened...because he dropped his bike on his leg about two weeks before and outright said G.D.!!!! in the right context...now I told him if that language was to continue, you are pretty darn tootin' we would revisit "The Christmas Story" that at one time was very acceptable for foul language usage...and in my own childhood VERY effective.

David and I's conclusion as it has been happening for two years...is that she was continually harrassing him once again about calling me step mom and that she is mom...so to shut her up...he told her that...ha ha...bright boy, but made her mad as a wet hen! And she got confrontational...so the letter was sent...yes the letter.

David asked me to compose a letter to her, stating that her behavior was uncalled for and unacceptable, and by the divorce decree, and as her wanting the title of mother, she need to pretty much (nicely stated and legally to the point) step up to the plate, but that until we met with our lawyer for advice we felt the need until we came to a formal agreement that visitation be withheld.

I came up with some "type" of agreement...but the lying idiotic twit handwrote a letter on notebook paper and filed it with the Benton Circuit County Court where they had their divorce finalized....and here we are at 9:30 a.m. documentation in hand...

The smirking judge reads her and explains to her the divorce decree she agreed to and signed and let her know in nice terms...with the struggle of not laughing in her face...that yes..she can have the change of visitation...since she got on the stand and confessed she's been doing it for two years already, but that she is responsible for the financial support of Kevin! Downfall...she fibbed and said she only made $13K last year...ha ha ha...she is requested to turn in W2's to our lawyer for 2008 so we can reevaluate...as it stands she is only $4.00 away from a pay increase to be financially "responsible"...she even tried to use her youngest "in high school unwed mother daugther and grandchild as a hardship" but then we let them know that the man she is married to, is the father of the daughter living with her, and the judge says with another smirk..."Well with that fact now mentioned, that hardship does not apply to the fact you are financially responsible for Kevin."

Point is, she left mad...we are to know follow the Indiana State Parenting guidelines...and that has been changed, and her visitation schedule that we currently do is now filed with the courts. From now on every year we are going to request W2's until she is able to be financially responsible...I have a feeling the W2 is going to come back being what we thought...much more than what she said in court...and guess what, she owes! But no back pay...and that's okay.

Mind you this started by her behavior of constantly harrassing Kevin over calling me mom...and what does she expect, I taught him how to talk, he lives with me 90% of the time, and Grace calls me mom or mommy...you expect the child not to do the same. We've told him he can label anyone in the family as he chooses, he knows our labels...our names, and who we are, and it's his choice...he's still five, and he's ADOPTED and a product of a divorce...do you really expect him to understand this? Do you expect him not to be confused? Wouldn't you just be happier, and him too, if he was allowed to have many mommies and daddies, and lots of family who loves him? I know I would, and I do...and David and I agree that that's how we are going to raise him...no psychological warfare.

Her lying made her look like an idiot..her comprehension of the agreement she signed for her divorce made her look like an idiot...and her changing her visitation to be recorded in the court...to get her to "not be responsible" for her child's welfare and support...was just plain well...do I really need to say it? Maybe it will open her eyes to the fact, that her confrontations, and her being reluctant to visit with him, the psychological warfare is not going to get her anywhere, and hopefully bring Kevin so peace and happiness when visiting his other family...we shall see.

After all, Friday is visitation day, and the Guidelines BEGIN! :0)

***Footnote, I wish that sometimes David and "D" could at least come to the understanding that I know I have with my ex...we can still be somewhat "friends" and jovial...we just couldn't communicate and be partners...just didn't work... Difference here...is that when someone is being a butt due to a bad day, we hang up on each other, and try again later...it's like riding a bike..you fall off but you get right back on...this is for the kids after all...it's not about you. If you didn't figure that out when you were in the process of making them, having them, and birthing them...you figure it out soon...the world doesn't revolve around you, it's all about THE KIDS!!!! THEY ARE OUR FUTURE!


--Back to the House.... Sold it Monday night...should be closed on deal by mid August...have to find a house and fast...we can rent up until Jan here...but well...the sooner we find a house and sign, the better...and I think we may have found "the one" already...just got to figure out where the money is coming and going from...ugh...I wish I was already driving my pink caddy... Too many houses to mention from 1 - 7:15 this evening..but the kids were drained by five...and well...it's now 12:45 a.m. and guess what...I'm still up, with only 2 hrs sleep, racking my brain on so many decisions.

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Hope everyone is more sane than I because I definitely know I'm not if I have had no sleep and am blogging! Love you all! Misty

Friday, July 10, 2009

Today is Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!

A weekend where David and I should not have the children but under circumstances have them both! And I couldn't be happier about that. :0) We are now going to be eating mexican food at 6:15 and I'm looking forward to the end of the day.

For those who have been personally emailed the drama...pray for us, and for little Kevin. We are going to do our best, to help him as best we can. I love little man. It was so sad this morning, he said, "Mommy, I want to go home...I miss you..I don't want you to go to work over and over again in the morning." This made me tear up, the little guy is having withdrawals because I've worked all week...we have not had much time for just kids and mommy this week.

As for so many other things going on my head, I have to get on the phone, start searching for support groups online, and do the research to manage to accumulate all I can on what we can do to make the "battle" easier over Kevin. Wether the lawyer thinks it's feasible for us to fight her to sign him over, or just to take her for the cash...who knows...but what I want...is for her to either stop harrassing the confused little boy and let him grow and be happy. David and I counted up the hours last night that she has him from friday night, to sunday afternoon...once you take into account sleep time and naps...she gets exactly 48 hrs a month with him and that's not ONE on ONE time either. You do the math... :0( So disheartening.

I can't believe in a few weeks the kids will be starting school, and Monday I have to go to the BMV to get gracie an ID, so she can go with Dianna (her father's mom) to see her aunt Eve (her father's sister) in Washington D.C. Just so amazing, it'll be her first plane ride and I won't be with her. :0( But glad she gets the opportunity to do something fun this summer with her other family.

Wow...so much to do!!!!!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Safety warning....

Okay, so everyone knows Kevin's birthday came and went on Friday July 3rd. We had a small kids pool party with Elana's boys Tristan and Donovan and Grace in the pool with Kevin, while the adults sat around and chatted. It was a great time.

Kevin received two identical Batmobiles...and they have proved to be a joy! They wind up and it shoots across the floor and makes lots of noise then shoots some type of missile. GREAATTT!!!!...the best part....he wound it up...and placed it on his chest!!!!!! WOOOUCH!!!! Screaming like a banshee....

Now thanks to Gma Phillis and her story of Uncle Brice placing his wind up van in his hair, he decided that hair was not the way to go....so let's try flesh!

Needless to say a few tears later and an ice pack placed strategically on the left side of his chest and an ibuprofren for any swelling he was fine.

Monday, he was sitting at the table still very away there is bruising, but so happy that, "Mommy see, it still pokes out! I didn't rip my nipple off!" ha ha ha ha ha

So safety warning.....wind up cars belong on the floor, not on any part of your anatomy or you may lose it. ha!

It's been a long long time.....

Yes, party people, I am alive and well. Or so I might not be so well...but what can you say about an ulcer? Or high acidity levels when it comes to stress.

In light of all that is going on, let me fill you in. Well as it comes and goes, Grace continued to have many problems when it came to school, there for a while the teacher and I really thought that she would come out of it, but then the last two weeks, the behavioral became an issue again.

So Grace was recommended for ADD/ADHD evaluation and testing. In the progressing months since I last posted, her anxiety level has skyrocketed. I can not walk out to the garage to get food from the freezer for preperation, I can not be in the yard, without her hunting me down every five minutes. Culprit is her sleep pattern. She is not sleeping near as much as she should. We met with the pediatrician in june, and grace is on a sleep aid/anti depressant. The evaluations from her teachers have yet to be returned to Dr. Woodman as of yet. After Dr. Woodman did her evaluation and interviewed Grace herself, her suspicions are of ADHD...Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder...Grace hyper? Nooooo.... Seriously.

But her constant fidgiting and unability to sit still unless she is doing a project she is performing that she PREFERS to do is the only possible way, and even then she seems to get up and dance in her seat, which I as a mother NEVER noticed before. I was in shock and disbelief. In fact if you want to know the truth, since April, I literally have dived into major research about the disorder and tried to figure out exactly what we need to do, and possibilities for treatment. I also struggled with the fact that we have to have acceptance from the family members for her treatment, which may sound easy, but RITALIN has literally has been giving treatment a bad rap for years!!!!!! It's not like they haven't improved medication since then.

I am one to be the hardest to convince that my child needs treatment. But at the same time, she is mimicking behaviors of her father...and as little time as she spends with him, not all of it is environmentally learned. This is genetic. He has graduated from borderline personality disorder to now manic behaviors and severe anxiety, which he is medicated for.

Our issue here, is that Kevin is now mimmicking some attitude and behaviors from his sister...which causes us great concern. How much of it is really him, and how much of it is his sister. We know genetically he may not be perfect (due to his biological parents, since he is adopted), but we really need to understand and define between what is what.

My current struggle is I'm writing a book on all of this.... and now Kevin's "other mother" my husband's ex wife, is now causing issues. Still after two years of Kevin talking and calling me mom, she continues to harrass Kevin about family member name labels. And was confrontational when the little boy told her, "they'll put soap in my mouth if I call her Misty." Why does he have to lie and say something like that to get her to stop, why does his rights as a child have to be compromised by not letting him be a happy child, why continue to confuse him about his upbringing? Isn't it hard enough already for him? Isn't going to be even harder when he understands and comprehends the whole adoption process? Won't this confuse him when he is older about his past and his future? It pulls at my heartstrings to hear him tell David and I, "this is too confusing." I cried that day, it saddens me alot, for his sake, he is such a loving and accepting child, and has so much potential. Where does she get off being able to do this?

Well, David has decided it's time to do something, so we ask for everyone's support with this. We sent her a letter, restricting her visitation to public places such as chuck e cheese and monkey joe's so we show up with him and leave with him. It's not like it makes much of a difference, because she cut down her visitation to every other weekend two years ago (due to $$$. She would have to pay for daycare while working and she did not want to do that). But she has not contacted us to set up a time or date of when she would like to visit with him. But this is an option for a controlled environment for visitation where we know that she can not be confrontational, and where we know there is not constant harrassment. This is for Kevin's best interest. Our first conference with the lawyer is on August 17th so we can set up for a hearing. Not sure what his opinion will be as far as what we have a better chance for fighting for, full custody, or child support.

In either case, we are hoping for him to be as happy as he can be at this point. :0)
But we are making progress in the right direction for both kids...and that's a blessing! :0)

Sunday, April 12, 2009

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Happy easter!

Monday, April 6, 2009

Loving the Ex's...

Do we love them or hate them, or just wish they would dissolve like the last alka seltzer you dropped into your tumbler full of water? Okay, I prefer the alka seltzer method, but unfortunately, they are the non cancerous moles that stay on your skin unless you pay heavy amounts of money and endure more pain to erase them from your skin. So yeah, needless to say, the ex's have to stay, and surgical removal isn't an option. **Although if I figure it out, I'll be sure to have it done ASAP.

Originally for the weekend David and I had planned to visit Nikki on Saturday and since the rainy weather was in the forecast for Sunday along with a temperature drop, we thought it'd be a great idea to see her on Saturday when it was sunny. Then my sister emmie put the cherry on my merriment sundae and called to ask if we would like to come up to visit. So we decided this was an even greater idea! We planned to shop at the Lighthouse Outlet, and go back in the afternoon to South Bend to have dinner and hit a few clubs. Shopping was glorious and David bought a dress that matches the shoes and purse that he bought me on our honeymoon (a year later)!!!! It was simply amazing to find it.

Let me say, he was going to get me a new wallet...but COACH had a line that was backed up to the door, and although they say we are in a recession and that the economy sucks...COACH's spring collection and Bath&Body's Smelly Soap seems to be the things that gets our economy excited. At least it was in Michigan City. The line was so long...I decided against the wallet, but I'm soooo going back to get one sometime this summer! Same with B&B, we had Josh stand in line, while we shopped just so we could make a group effort in getting in and out of the store in record time!

We went to the Vines in South Bend, and that was some fantastic gourmet pizza...and we even got a baked brie...and yummy...to my tummy...i want more of that food!!! We decided to hit a few clubs, the first one, had an auction sign in the window, they'd sold their franchise name and got rid of the website, but they were still listed...well the walk from the parking garage was nice, and lo' and behold, we decided to walk to South Bend Chocolate Cafe' because we had a little while to wait before another club's show was to start. After molesting the oddly placed Bronze Gorilla and getting some germs on my lips and some precarious pictures we went into the cafe'. David and I had chocolate cherry cheesecake, and I ordered a "Lake Effect" which is a white chocolate espresso drink...that literally they put three ladles full of white chocolate approx 1/2 lb liquid choclate in that drink....OH MY...I did gain ten lbs saturday night. By the time I had imbibed enough caloric intake to suffice for another quadtrillion years, we walked a few more blocks to the other club, only to find, anti social security guards, lots of flashing lights, pounding music, and an empty room. We then settled to stop freezing and hop into the Pilot and purchase a few libations to take with us to Club Fairview where we were at least guaranteed to have good conversations and a hot tub to parboil in.

It was a fantastic time! But as all weekends go, they have to end.

David, Nikki, and I were traveling back and we weren't even on the road approx 10 minutes and the text message came from his ex...asking when we were picking up the son.

There are things that dig deep into the pits of your stomach like the last tamale you tried to consume with that 12 oz margarita...wether it was the tamale or the tequila...you know just something doesn't agree, and that's what is up in the ex's hood. A BADDDDD FEELING.

Kevin got in the car to say to me, "Denise and Eric told me to call you step mom over and over again."

Oh yeah, they go there every time they have him. Little do they understand in their little pea brains...that it doesn't matter what they tell my little boy, he only says that when he gets in, and then I'm "mommy" once again. They won't win, but at the same time, messing with the child's head, and trying to play word games, isn't going to work.

The other bad mojo was Grace's dad...he popped his fuel tank in southern indiana backing over a railroad tie, he was able to epoxy the tank to stop the leak on Saturday. And although he knew it was raining on Sunday,and me pointing out to him Grace has a Science Fair project she needed to work on last night, he decided to stay late, knowing his tires have no traction, and scaring him to the point of calling me to beg me to meet him at the Dayton exit because he really didn't want to drive anymore...puhleeze....did someone put STUPIDITY minerals in the water!!! Because yesterday both ex's had their daily quotient of stupid.

I seriously hope this week is better, and that Easter goes smoothly. Here comes peter cottontail...no red dye #40 in this house, but loads of high quality chocolate, and two parents that will be willing to sell their souls for an hours worth of peace and a good cup of coffee, after the chocolate consumption begins.

Wish us luck!!!! Hope life finds you well!

Grace made it home after 9.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

"There's a spider on your shoulder!!!!"

"Happy Fool's Day!" Kevin exclaims to each and every person that he came across today. Yes it has been an exciting morning for sure. Grace introduced Kevin to April Fool's Day this morning and that's what lead to the predicament this morning. He even fooled a few girls who had forgotten what day it was.

Saturday of course David had to work, so the kids and I worked at home. I had the urge to cook my FIRST PRIME RIB...and low and behold there was a possibility of a full house by noon. ;0) I had a few friends Nate and Carmen who may come, then I got a call from my best friend Tera...Myles (her husband) had passed his real estate state exam! So Tera and Myles came for dinner, unfortunately Nate and Carmen got called to attend a family dinner with his father. Myles proclaimed the Prime Rib was " of restaurant quality!". I was pretty proud. I had made homemade rolls, baked potatos, salads, prime rib, and a homemade pumpkin pie. David contributed with his special strawberry margaritas...and we literally were stuffed by the end of the evening. We played a few games of mexican train dominoes...before poor myles who had been up at the wee hours of the morning had to call it a night. It was a great time, and look forward to doing yet another prime rib. ;0) Yummy!!!

Although the events of the weekend have come and gone, we spent a lot of time at home just puttering around the house and relaxing, it's not often that we get to do that.


The kids and I have started their progress charts! They get check marks for all chores accomplished. Kevin is making his bed, keeping his toys picked up (which is a little more left to be desired but he is still 4), Helping Mommy (which he LOVES to do especially in the kitchen), Eating Quietly (which he is doing outstandingly), Brushing his teeth, and Going to bed by 8:30. Grace's consist of, Sweeping Floors, Feeding and Watering the cat and scooping her litter, Doing her homework and practice within an hour, Keeping her room picked up, Making her bed, and Bedtime by 9:30....although there are areas for improvement they get 14 cks it's ice cream, at 28 check marks they get another reward (but I've forgotten what LOL) and when it triples with checks they get a trip to the park or the zoo. :0) For starting out for four days so far, they are doing amazingly well, and we hope to keep it going! I am proud of my kids buckling down and working hard for their check marks!

I have to head off to get Grace and drop off Kevin's kindergarten paperwork...so off I go!!! I will post more later!